I'll make this as brief and pithy as possible, because I don't want to dwell too much into it and I know I make things get really long-winded.

I don't quite feel my family has been the same since the IRS incident. Everyone has become a little detached, and it's so hard for me to take, considering they're people who are the closest to me. I guess if I couple in the fact that I'm spending more time in school and having to do things like drive myself to places I have to be at, it is really hard to believe that things can't be what they were before. I know change is a part of growing up, but it's so hard. It's crazy how happy and old cheerful times can disappear or end, even though I know they can't stay like they are forever.

I'll cope, though. I'm the kind of person that likes to believe that if I want something like reliving those days, I have to make new memories! That in itself isn't that difficult, but it's starting that's hard. I like what Nagase Tomoya said in newshfan 's subbed 2001 sports day thing. Something along the lines of "It's up to me to get the results I want". It's about sports, but hey, still inspirational!

Life is funny, which makes it a little bit hard for me to decide what to do sometimes.

Also, reading about some f-list updates about Koichi's proposed 100 shows of Endless Shock, new album, solocon.. I know that sounds and is a lot of work, but I'd rather feel happy for him than be worried. XD Reading how some people feel about makes me kind of depressed, but I have no doubt he'll work hard. Rather than worrying that he'll forget to eat, I'd prefer to think he'll take better care of himself and eat well. Plus, he has Pan. That's his energy source right there. (X!

That said, I feel that way about a lot of you, too! I thought about what rurun said, and I won't specify what, but I would rather feel happy for any of you than worried. I just feel optimism is an empowering feeling, that's all. I would think some people wouldn't want anyone to worry about them..? Perhaps they'd rather have others believe them?

Alas, I do digress. It's Halloween today in the US, and I don't know where else, but whether ornot you celebrate this holiday, I hope everyone has a good one. n_n

I'll make this as brief and pithy as possible, because I don't want to dwell too much into it and I know I make things get really long-winded.

I don't quite feel my family has been the same since the IRS incident. Everyone has become a little detached, and it's so hard for me to take, considering they're people who are the closest to me. I guess if I couple in the fact that I'm spending more time in school and having to do things like drive myself to places I have to be at, it is really hard to believe that things can't be what they were before. I know change is a part of growing up, but it's so hard. It's crazy how happy and old cheerful times can disappear or end, even though I know they can't stay like they are forever.

I'll cope, though. I'm the kind of person that likes to believe that if I want something like reliving those days, I have to make new memories! That in itself isn't that difficult, but it's starting that's hard. I like what Nagase Tomoya said in newshfan 's subbed 2001 sports day thing. Something along the lines of "It's up to me to get the results I want". It's about sports, but hey, still inspirational!

Life is funny, which makes it a little bit hard for me to decide what to do sometimes.

Also, reading about some f-list updates about Koichi's proposed 100 shows of Endless Shock, new album, solocon.. I know that sounds and is a lot of work, but I'd rather feel happy for him than be worried. XD Reading how some people feel about makes me kind of depressed, but I have no doubt he'll work hard. Rather than worrying that he'll forget to eat, I'd prefer to think he'll take better care of himself and eat well. Plus, he has Pan. That's his energy source right there. (X!

That said, I feel that way about a lot of you, too! I thought about what rurun said, and I won't specify what, but I would rather feel happy for any of you than worried. I just feel optimism is an empowering feeling, that's all. I would think some people wouldn't want anyone to worry about them..? Perhaps they'd rather have others believe them?

Alas, I do digress. It's Halloween today in the US, and I don't know where else, but whether ornot you celebrate this holiday, I hope everyone has a good one. n_n