Hika
16 June 2010 @ 07:26 pm
In a little disbelief...  
Two weeks back I left some things at my sister's friend's house to try and sell at her garage sale, and when I came to pick them up today, she told me she had donated everything to Goodwill. I couldn't believe it, because she had not informed my sister or me about this, and I had told her that we would pick them up. Tomo told me her friend was forgetful, but I'm shocked at the level of forgetfulness, or rather, the unreasonable thing she did. Isn't it common courtesy to set others' belongings aside until the person comes back to get it?

I guess I'm mostly upset because her answer was "I thought it was stuff you wanted to get rid of." My mom was really upset, because the oars, lights, door screens, were items she wanted back if we couldn't sell it. She was yelling at me on the phone and I thought she was mad at me, but once I got home, it was obvious that she was angry at my sister's friend. ^^;

In any case, nothing can be done now. It's a loss, but we can still be upset about it, right?

And now, a meme! )
 
 
Current Location: Downstairs
Current Mood: disappointed
 
 
Hika
27 January 2010 @ 07:36 pm
I always lose to myself. XD  
I'm not thinking about it as much as I was a day or two ago, but I've been gaining a bit of weight. I thought it was okay since family matters still aren't great even though it's been a few months, so I do.. eat to cheer myself up and/or lack motivation to do lots of things. My mom says that I shouldn't blame that kind of thing on "depression". She's right, but even so, I still feel unmotivated and down and I want to eat anyway. XD;

That said, I'm feeling okay right now, so don't think I'm writing this while I'm feeling all gloom and doom. ^^;

I was out of an art slump, but I feel like I'm getting sucked back into it. o_O; I'm trying to fight it. XD I did some quick doodles, at the very least. One was a small thing I did to summarize a dream I had a few days ago *posted to my dream journal* and..
Tsuba-ushi!
I'm not big on guys in skirts, but the cow-print theme of this costume just screamed for me to try and draw something using only black.. The challenge was coloring in with black, too. XD; Well, I mostly did this because I have a subscription on my MangaBullet and I wanted to stick a background on before it disappears February 2nd. 

Oh, I scanned the comics I sent to RuRun, but I haven't saved them as separate files, so I'll share those later. Hahah.

Let's see what's next on my to-do list.. XD

 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Soul'd Out - To All Tha Dreamers
 
 
Hika
05 September 2009 @ 10:12 am
Well, after writing this I forgot why I was angry...  
I'd hate to make my post sound all emo and angsty, but it's something about myself that I see resurfacing several times whenever I get upset and decide to raise a fuss. I'd like to think I'm grown up about matters, but gosh darn it, I'm such a kid. It's a flaw of mine that I don't think gets much spotlight, because it's only revealed with my family (because they're the only ones who will put up with you, no matter how ridiculous you get), so of course I'm grateful that thye're practically one of the only people in the world who will still love me no matter what.

By now, I'm not being so much as emo about it anymore.. How I feel about being angry fluctuates fast, and right now it's at an optimistic part, which is a good thing. Right now I'm looking at my anger as another learning opportunity for improvement. Like I said, whenever I get upset, recently it always boils down to the end of "I didn't change this time".

Cut because it's boring, but I won't hide my personal feelings-- my true nature. XD )

But maybe that's why I won't be right because I'm such a kid about it. And if I'm right about it even once, I'll want to be right again. Never being right.. Maybe that's the important thing here.. Because as long as I'm never right, I can keep learning and be reminded that I still have ways to go as a person.

In regards to the previous journal post, dang, Colorgenics. Boy did I ride on such a life-coaster. It's SO been going up and down, and another up (or down) is on its way. I'm okay, though. I just have to hang on and stuff~ I think I'll be okay because I'm pretty much optimistic or positive about things. I'm only in trouble when I start emo-ing out like this.

 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Kinki Kids - Music of Life
 
 
Hika
05 September 2009 @ 10:12 am
Well, after writing this I forgot why I was angry...  
I'd hate to make my post sound all emo and angsty, but it's something about myself that I see resurfacing several times whenever I get upset and decide to raise a fuss. I'd like to think I'm grown up about matters, but gosh darn it, I'm such a kid. It's a flaw of mine that I don't think gets much spotlight, because it's only revealed with my family (because they're the only ones who will put up with you, no matter how ridiculous you get), so of course I'm grateful that thye're practically one of the only people in the world who will still love me no matter what.

By now, I'm not being so much as emo about it anymore.. How I feel about being angry fluctuates fast, and right now it's at an optimistic part, which is a good thing. Right now I'm looking at my anger as another learning opportunity for improvement. Like I said, whenever I get upset, recently it always boils down to the end of "I didn't change this time".

Cut because it's boring, but I won't hide my personal feelings-- my true nature. XD )

But maybe that's why I won't be right because I'm such a kid about it. And if I'm right about it even once, I'll want to be right again. Never being right.. Maybe that's the important thing here.. Because as long as I'm never right, I can keep learning and be reminded that I still have ways to go as a person.

In regards to the previous journal post, dang, Colorgenics. Boy did I ride on such a life-coaster. It's SO been going up and down, and another up (or down) is on its way. I'm okay, though. I just have to hang on and stuff~ I think I'll be okay because I'm pretty much optimistic or positive about things. I'm only in trouble when I start emo-ing out like this.

 
 
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Kinki Kids - Music of Life
 
 
Hika
21 August 2009 @ 12:04 pm
I did Colorgenics again!  
Sometimes I look at my journal and look at the last post I made, which happened to be the colorgenics one. I've been fond of my results for that one, because at the time, I thought it reflected me perfectly. It said everything I liked about myself at the time, and hoped it wouldn't change too much. I'm throwing in the past tense here because, well, I don't think it's gone. I still like it even now, and was partially afraid that if I took it again, it wouldn't say that about be anymore. I took it again, anyway, because my demeanor now is different from then because of some things I'm going through (Generally, I mean. There's nothing tragic or anything that's angering me specifically right now. Everybody goes through things!), and I was curious what Colorgenics would say about me now and if it would brighten up my spirits again.

Again, the link is www.goldinuniverse.com

So, let's take a look at what it said this time! )
Though I must admit I never wished for winning a lottery. It's close though. I did wish problems would just go away, or rather, disappear. I'm not talking about problems like for math, but financial ones, or family ones. That is to say, I'm not totally depressed right now. I'm just stating the truth. XD

I like that "charming" "leader" continues to be there. XD That's reassuring! I think, technically, it restates some of the things from last time, but matches it with how I'm feeling right now, so I feel that's accurate enough. Hurrah for being the same, even if I could use some work to become a better person. n_n

 
 
Current Music: Kentarou Haneda - Beautiful Morning
Current Location: Home!
Current Mood: mellow
 
 
Hika
21 August 2009 @ 12:04 pm
I did Colorgenics again!  
Sometimes I look at my journal and look at the last post I made, which happened to be the colorgenics one. I've been fond of my results for that one, because at the time, I thought it reflected me perfectly. It said everything I liked about myself at the time, and hoped it wouldn't change too much. I'm throwing in the past tense here because, well, I don't think it's gone. I still like it even now, and was partially afraid that if I took it again, it wouldn't say that about be anymore. I took it again, anyway, because my demeanor now is different from then because of some things I'm going through (Generally, I mean. There's nothing tragic or anything that's angering me specifically right now. Everybody goes through things!), and I was curious what Colorgenics would say about me now and if it would brighten up my spirits again.

Again, the link is www.goldinuniverse.com

So, let's take a look at what it said this time! )
Though I must admit I never wished for winning a lottery. It's close though. I did wish problems would just go away, or rather, disappear. I'm not talking about problems like for math, but financial ones, or family ones. That is to say, I'm not totally depressed right now. I'm just stating the truth. XD

I like that "charming" "leader" continues to be there. XD That's reassuring! I think, technically, it restates some of the things from last time, but matches it with how I'm feeling right now, so I feel that's accurate enough. Hurrah for being the same, even if I could use some work to become a better person. n_n

 
 
Current Music: Kentarou Haneda - Beautiful Morning
Current Mood: mellow
Current Location: Home!