hikarii: (tsubasa)
2017-01-21 10:50 pm
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Castle Escape Room + Chill session with friends

I noticed I have a lot of dead images in the past few posts about my travels O_O Yow, I should get that fixed soon, and I mean soon not put-off soon. I have a few days of my break left before school starts. I don't know what to expect this semester and I'm really scared.. I'm starting my Master's Project and though it's a one unit class, I'm told it requires lots of time and work, more than a regular 3 unit class. I lightened my load to be below what classifies as a full time student to prepare, but my schedule looks so bare I'm wondering if I'm going too easy on myself..

But what I really wanted to write about today was events from last weekend! Three other friends and I bought a Groupon together to do a Castle Escape game. My friend Helen has done it a few times, but for the other three including me it was going to be a brand new experience. We wanted to see how we would work as a team. The place we went to wasn't exactly decked out as amazingly as the ones Helen had been to, but it was still fun for us first-timers. I noticed that our friend Jessica was really jumpy at anything scary! I had previously wanted to do a scary-themed one, but the way Jessica got spooked over nothing made me realize that's a no-go for future escape game plans. Both Jessica and Helen overthink things, and for this escape game, there were a lot of red herrings that they spend time on trying to figure out the meaning of the puzzle. As for me, I seem to resort to brute force when I can't open anything! Locked chests, hidden compartments... I would try to forcibly open them. XD It wasn't a bad thing since we got a hold of some key items that way.. We made it out but we had to ask for help twice. We took a pic after but I haven't seen it uploaded on their website yet!

After that we returned to base and wrote a letter to our friend in the next state over. We took turns writing it so it will probably be very confusing for her. XD We decided to have dinner at a new restaurant called Sizzle Spot that opened up nearby. They serve Japanese-Vietnamese food fusion which sounded very unique to me so I really wanted to try it. It was REALLY good in my opinion. They did mess up Helen's order but she still had a good time. I'd like to come back with my family sometime too!

When we finished dinner we returned to play card games: BS (I won) and blackjack since I was talking about casinos. We finished the rest of our hangout session talking about SAD ADULT LIFE RESPONSIBILITIES and then went home since everyone was tired and also down with the flu. Except me. I've been surrounded with sick family members and friends that I'm terribly worried I'll catch something! As of now, I SEEM to be okay!

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2016-06-15 06:35 pm
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Visiting Vietnam

All right, after years of refusing to go every time my dad went to Vietnam, I finally went this year since I am completely free for the summer. In the middle of the trip we visited Thailand for my dad's business trip, which I have written about here.
First and Second Day
Upon arriving in Ho Chi Minh City I was welcomed with an immediate rush of humid heat. I found it hard to breathe and wondered how I would make it through the entire two weeks if it was already this hot on my first day. As we left the airport and looked at the city buildings flying past us as we traveled by car, I could see numerous buildings typical of a bustling city. The streets were populated with motorbikes. I hear a lot that there are no road rules here and seeing that in truth is terrifying. Even the car we rode in had no seat belts. I was very confused and concerned about that fact for awhile.

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2016-06-15 06:17 pm
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Trip to Thailand!

I went to Thailand over the weekend! Funny enough I was kind of using this post from the [livejournal.com profile] 2wenty_2wo community to plan my trip. I thought it would lead me to discover some exciting things and food, since the LJ users responding were all natives. XD Well, I didn't follow it exactly, but I did have quite the adventure!

Long entry, image heavy, etc. etc. )
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2016-04-23 09:07 am
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Short weekend in Portland/Seatle

Breakfast at IHOP, since we were starving upon our arrival into PDX at 8 AM. We hit the road, making our way towards the city's highest bridge.

We headed straight for southern Portland to check out the Air Tram, thinking we'd start our trip with an aerial view of the city. I could see a lot of the bridges that connected Portland and Mt. St. Helen. 

Afterwards we headed for Downtown Portland where we stopped by the Alder Street Food Cart Pods. I had read that Portland is very famous for its food carts that run throughout an entire block. I got a Spanish Seafood Paella from a Morrocan stall and my dad and I had the most delicious deep fried soft-shelled crab. It was very tasty!

Alder Street Food Cart Pods

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hikarii: (tsubasa)
2015-10-17 10:13 pm
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Tsubasa's birthday *^^*

My scanner is working again!! For the month of October, there is art challenge called Inktober where one tries to draw something everyday using ink. I participated last year and I guess so far I am doing okay this year. I hadn't originally intended to participate since I've been so busy with school, but I am trying to set aside at least one hour a day to draw to unwind. Aaand, somehow I've been able to do it.

I also intended to draw only with black ink as I did last year due to interest of time, but some days ago, I saw another fellow artist color her pictures beautifully with pen. It reminded me that I have some colored pens I stashed away since the 5th grade! I thought I should try to use them up, since they weren't great pens or anything like that and I wanted to get rid of them. So since, I have been trying to do colored works, which was also unexpected on my part. Man, this month is just making me do the unexpected! It's an interesting challenge I set forth for myself.

Um, anyway!! Because it's Tsubasa's birthday, I went ahead and drew him. ^^a My wish is for him to always be happy and have something to smile about. His smile is my sunshine. ^^

.. Really!! If it weren't for Tsubasa, I would not have been drawing as much as I do now or trying new things with both art and life. I am able to be brave because he is brave, so.. yeah.. The usual "this is my idol" insert lines.  ^^;;

Ah, I'm talking so much. The reason for my opening statement was because I just wanted to say how happy I am that I don't have to deal with crappy phone photos of my doodles, but I know what you're thinking: just post the art and go already, Hika!

This one was for @J_1Draw on twitter. ^^

For some reason, writing this entry makes me feel like confessing things. -laugh- I actually get so nervous every time I draw these in pen! I don't use whiteout (because I want to avoid being too much of a perfectionist, again, due to interest of time) so I'm always scared when I start putting pen to paper. Sometimes I don't even have a proper pencil sketch before I start working. When I make a mistake and miss a stroke, I feel like dying. XDa So you can imagine the stress levels when I'm doing something like inking a drawing of Tsubasa !! (But I do it anyway, I'm crazy!)
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2015-08-20 08:25 am
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2015 Summer of Playzone

I've been meaning to marathon Playzone for some time now to make sure I watch EVERYTHING, since there were things I pretty much denied myself due to school at the time. That is to say, I didn't REALLY start marathoning, but.. 

I was watching Playzone 2014's disc 2 at first, and switching back to 2010.. Dang!! It's really something to see how the boys have grown up within those 4 years of performing together. In PZ'14, we can see Tsubasa talking about how he's the troupe leader and see him discussing dance numbers with the other boys. He says things like, "Think about your roles when performing this." Honestly, if I was told that, I'd be terrified! Like, what role?! I know that that way, the boys are assigned responsibilities for what they want to perform, but that's some huge pressure in my opinion. XD

I'm watching 2010 and you can just sense how worried and unsure Tsubasa was then in taking part in Playzone. I could feel my tears well up, knowing how much more confident he's become now. I'm so proud of him, and I'm so happy to see how much all the seniors praise him!! AND THEN WHEN MATCHY CAME AND SAID TSUBASA WAS REALLY HUMBLE AND THAT HE WONDERED WHAT TSUBASA WAS WORRIED ABOUT.. AND THAT NO ONE HAS TO WORRY ABOUT TSUBASA ANYMORE.. I could cry!! I've lost count of how many times I could hear Tsubasa saying "arigatou gozaimasu" to all the seniors who came to see him. He's so earnest. I'm completely floored with admiration for him.

Actually, if I didn't cry then, I DEFINITELY DID WHEN MATCHY SUDDENLY APPEARED AT THE LAST SHOW and told the audience how before the shows Tsubasa had given him a call asking for advice. I remember reading about this and kind of forgot since, but seeing it now I can better understand the amount of pressure Tsubasa felt. That just makes me happier that Tsubasa has become so much stronger, for himself and for everyone.. and he shows it, especially since he's had the position as chairman for Playzone. 

ANYWAY, it was SOOO funny! I love JE! Everyone's so hilarious!! I love how some of the special guests come on stage like they're there to audition. I LOVE when Uekusa came and said he was the theater's owner (Is this a reference to SHOCK? Was SHOCK ever performed at this theater?) and wanted to audition!! AND THEN HE STARTED DANCING TO DIAMOND EYES!! AND THEN MESSED UP!? YARA WAS SO CUTE. He noticed and started playing along before Uekusa yelled STOP!!! I laughed so much at that.. Everyone loves good senpai/kouhai relationships, and I am no different. 

Other things:
-When Higashiyama said his and Uekusa's pictures shown as a montage on the screen made it seem like they were dead. XD
-Yara rehearsing and Higashiyama watching him. So cute XD
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2015-08-08 10:36 am
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Weekend Trip to Reno, Nevada

I went to Reno, Nevada for a 2-day trip last month. I had the week off and I wanted to go out and do something out of town, so I went on a road trip there along with my dad and sister. It's been some years since we last visited there.

It was nice! We mostly did sight-seeing, since my sister and I are old enough to appreciate that kind of thing better. The first day we were there, we took a look at the casinos that gave us fond memories. Atlantis had a nice top floor with a sky roof where they served sushi and hosted an oyster bar. I thought it was a nice and calming atmosphere, despite the numerous slot machines scattered all around the bar.

Heck, I'd love to pull slots here.

We visited the El Dorado/Circus Circus/Silver Legacy joint as well. It has always been our favorite place when we were kids. The game floor was always exciting, and winning stuffed animals was always the best. Every time I come here, since I was a kid, I would always hope there'd be giant plush Pokemon as prizes. The number has increased dramatically since. This time, a whole like of giant Pikachu were displayed all around a "knock the blocks" kind of game booth.

We also made a quick trip to the planetarium to look at ACTUAL METEORS FROM SPACE. It was free, but I left some money for donations.

My dad and sister wanted to eat at a buffet, since that is THE thing to do while in Reno for us. We chose to eat a seafood buffet, and it was nice! The dessert bar was beyond anything I had ever seen at a buffet (I don't eat buffets often). All the desserts were so cute! As I went back to get another serving of cheesecake, a man before me asked the chef if he could have a bananas foster.

"What's that?" I ask him, and as he explained to me it was ice cream with bananas and rum, I glanced over at the chef and said, "I'll have what he's having." Oh boy, it was delicious!! I discovered a new favorite dessert and I would love to have it again someday, somewhere. I really regret not having a second helping, but my dad said I had had too many sweets already at that point. XD

I will probably never get to have dessert like this again unless I'm at another buffet. XD

After dinner, my dad and sister wanted to walk off the energy from everything we had eaten, so we took a stroll down Victorian Square nearby. It was really pretty! I wanted to see the train tour the next day, but we couldn't.

Topping off my trip off, we ate at a place called M&M's Fish and Chicken Express. It's a small little shack, but because the food was very different from our usual tastes, we thought we'd give it a try. I mean, it's Southern cooking, and they have frog legs on their menu?! Frog legs have always tasted exactly like chicken to me, as cliche as they always try to pull it off.

The ribs were okay, but the fish and chicken are yuuum!
And that's it! I don't go on trips all that often, and I've been trying to go out and see places more to try and learn how to appreciate that kind of thing. I'm not very outdoorsy at all. XD
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2015-02-25 08:32 pm
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Post-birthday thoughts

 I just wanted to write a short entry.

Yesterday was my birthday and I spent it in the good company of my family. There's a seafood buffet in the next town over that has a sweet birthday deal, but I didn't want to trouble my parents into going with me. Despite offering to celebrate locally, they decided to go have that buffet with me for lunch. 

And, well, it was just nice! It was nice to be with my mom and dad and have everyone in good spirits.. I feel good times like those are uncommon, so I'm definitely grateful that we were all in a good mood. My mom doesn't usually like to eat, but she was pretty excited about eating bowls after bowls of green tea ice cream with me! I just felt overall emotional, overcome with love for my family. My sister left me a nice message, since she's away for school and couldn't join us.

I'm grateful for all the birthday messages I received, too! Really, I always believe that simple "Happy birthday!" messages can really make someone's day, since you never know who it can come from! I have to admit I was surprised to received them from quite a few people! I'm so appreciative of everyone who's kept me in their thoughts! 

I think every year we learn to let our heart grow a little bigger as we meet new people, revisit old friends, and learn to let go of things that might have hurt us. I remember reading a quote that time heals everything - you just have to let it. I also like the one that read if everyone's happy with you, you've made many compromises; if you're happy with everyone, you've had to oversee many faults. I think that's what it means to grow as wiser as an adult - to be an understanding and caring person (... along with lame responsibilities like having to go to the bank and getting groceries).

Am I a depressing kid? -laugh- I don't think any of that had to do with me, but they're interesting reminders. What I really wanted to say is that I'm surrounded by wonderful family and friends, and I really appreciate the time everyone took to keep me in their thoughts by wishing me happy birthday. You all helped make it wonderful. ^^
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2015-02-18 11:22 am

Meeting Mino-san

I met Mino-san in San Francisco on Monday! Mino-san is one of my mutual friends from Twitter. I initially followed her because I loved her art and I thought she was fun, from whatever tweets I was able to read. I didn't know enough Japanese to really speak to her, so I was pretty shy about talking to her. Imagine how shocked I was when she told me she would be visiting California and asked if she could meet me!

At first I told her it would be impossible, since she was visiting the Los Angeles area. When I told her I lived closer to San Francisco, she said she'd fly up there. Q_Q It was a wonderful opportunity I couldn't pass up. I asked Mino-san if my friend JoAnn ([livejournal.com profile] squarebubblex) could join us, and she said yes!


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2014-12-11 08:40 am
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[Subbed] 061119 SCP Imai Tsubasa Slave of Love

Lyrics & Translation from megchan.com

I don't know how long I had this sitting on my hard drive, but it was most definitely before 2012. I think I kept forgetting to upload it, but here it is.

Man, this is so nostalgic! It makes me miss the availability of subbed videos back in the day!! I want to bring that golden era back hahahah..
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2014-06-17 09:18 pm
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All my exes live in... ??


Hey, all! I just came back spending 4 days in Texas! The last time I’ve been on a plane was probably over a decade ago, when I was a little kid. I decided to go along with my dad because I haven’t really had the experience of travelling by plane.

I ate some pretty good food! My dad and I pretty much drove around to eat wherever when we weren’t working. I don’t think I ever ate so many different Mexican food. El Fenix had the best tostados I have ever had offered to me as appetizers.

I met my dad’s friend’s daughter who just graduated from high school. Apparently she’s only been living here for 2 years! She lived in Vietnam all this time. Her English was really, REALLY good. We talked a LOT, but it was mostly her telling me things since I was so curious about her. She told me about the education system in Vietnam (and how incredibly rigorous it is). It just made me think so much about the relationship between education in the States and other countries… She also told me about a field trip she had with her class back in Vietnam. They went to the jungle and seriously had to do a whole week like a real jungle survivor. … Except she cheated and used a lighter to light a fire she couldn’t get started with rubbing sticks together.

Really though, she’s so cool! She has a completely different upbringing from me so I was very fascinated with her.

I found out she LOVES Darren Shan’s Cirque du Freak. It’s been translated in Vietnamese! Of the 31 languages the series has been translated to, Vietnamese was one of them. Nice! I was so excited to be able to talk about it. I never knew anyone in real life who’s read it before! I didn’t finish all the books, though, and she was kind of spoiling me, hahah!

We went to the mall together, and that was quite a trip. I ended up having to teach how to fill up a gas tank.

In any case, for breakfast this morning, I went to the Old Pancake House and had their special “Dutch Baby”. It’s an oven baked pancake that takes 22 minutes to cook. I didn’t know how to eat it so the waitress showed me. The Dutch Baby doesn’t taste like anything special until you do it right, she said. She rubbed the whole thing with butter and squeezed lemon juice on it, then added powdered sugar. When I took my first bite.. dang! It was really sweet and I really liked it! It was definitely something strange that I’ve never had before.

I’m really going out of order here, but as I went around eating food, I tried to think about what looked easy enough for me to try to do at home for myself. I never, ever cook, but I’m trying to get familiar with a lot of simple stuff I can make. For instance, a breakfast I had at the hotel I stayed at had this delicious healthy sandwich that had slices of turkey, egg white and spinach on top of an English muffin. I think I tasted some cheese but I’m not sure if there was any. In any case, that’s easy enough for me to pull together on my own, right?

I’d like to go on more trips with my dad in the future, but taking time off from work isn’t always possible, so I can only keep my fingers crossed that the months he chooses to go are convenient enough for me!

Ah, my coworker asked if I saw any big bugs as I had hoped, and I remembered I did! It was some weird beetle thing. I had to take care of it 'cause the daughter didn't like bugs. XD

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2014-04-13 09:08 pm
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LA Kpop Festival 2014

I attended my first ever concert, LA Kpop Festival 2014!

I went down there with my Inspirit cousin along with her brother and father. I was waiting to meet up with another cousin of mine who had a spare ticket for me since I wasn’t able to get one. (They were free, so naturally they were unavailable online when I tried to get some.)

Right outside the gate where my two cousins entered to go find their seats, an elderly man handed me three tickets, asking if I wanted them. “What, really? Are you sure?” I asked, but he only responded “Gift!” What a surprise, and here this whole time my ability to attend had been up in the air! I wanted to give away the extra ticket, but by that point it seems everyone had tickets…

The tickets I got were at the bottom rows, directly in front of the stage behind the pit. What a surprise at how good the tickets were! I texted my family about the news, to which they responded, “It’s a trap.”

The coliseum was so huge! 93,000 were expected to attend, so I’ve been anxious all week fearing the worst that could happen, like a stampede or something. Nope, that didn’t happen. Whew!

It was pretty fun. I got to see CNBlue, 2 PM, SHINee, and of courrseeee, Infinite! Ah, and Dynamic Duo,

I’m sorry everyone, I’m a noisy fan. I tried to be very conscious about what would be proper etiquette but with my die-hard cousin next to me, I lost my place and cheered with her. But seriously, when 2 PM’s “Put Your Hands Up” plays, what am I to do but?

This morning we stopped by New Port restaurant to eat the best lobster I have ever had.

And that’s all I’ve got to report, it seems!

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2013-07-28 07:18 pm

JPop Summit 2013!

After thinking I wouldn't go, I went to JPop summit yesterday! When Kinokuniya first announced it on their Facebook page, there wasn't much information about it on the website so I wasn't sure, but when [livejournal.com profile] squarebubblex mentioned on Friday suggesting we go, I immediately went to see if new events had been posted on the website. I knew I wanted to visit the VizMedia and FUNimation booth at the very least. I also wanted to see artist Katsuya Terada and possibly get his autograph (which I wasn't able to!). Kinokuniya posted some photos up in an album on Facebook here, though!

I missed beatboxing JPOP ambassodor DAICHI's performance by the time we got there, but I got to see him walking in the streets and was literally inches away from him when these girls dressed as butlers said hello to him. I took the chance to wave at him as well.

I didn't really take very many pictures. I'll just wait on [livejournal.com profile] squarebubblex to upload hers. I think she took a few photos for me. I did get to take a picture with models Ayumi Seto and EVA. They were really cute and sweet and Ayumi pointed at my shirt saying, "Mario!" then at my hat, "Pikachu!" Aaah, I didn't know how to speak to her but I was happy that she'd point them out like that. It was a connection link in culture!

I got a Bleach shirt from the VizMedia booth, which I was pretty excited about. I got some other nice freebies too! We checked out the Harajuku KAWAII pop up shop, and pretty much meandered around the street shops. We watched a Fashion Show  featuring a number of popular Japanese models including Ayumi Seto, Yura, and Saki Sato. There was a special appearance of Sebastian Masuda and Kyary Pamyu Pamyu as well! Kyary's concert was today, which my friend went to watch. ^^

Aand yeah! We ended the day at the event watching performances by LoVendoR. It was pretty fun and definitely a new experience for me in terms of getting there. I had never taken the BART train or a bus around a busy city before, and though I still can't trust myself on my own, at least it was something different!
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2013-05-26 10:27 pm

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 It's been awhile! I just finished a picture I took awhile to finish and I wanted to go ahead and update with a small art dump while I'm at it. I've been really obsessed with the manga, One Punch Man drawn by Murata Yusuke. It's hilarious, and I highly recommend it. I drew Genos in a suit!

Spaaaam )
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2012-10-31 11:50 pm
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Happy Halloween!

Just something done really quick while trick-or-treaters were visiting my house. ^^ TakkiTsu with the hats and neckpillows that Yamapi gave them at their 10th anniversary concert.

There was a small earthquake last night and I'm really worried... Every time it happens lately, my life passes before my eyes. I'm more scared about being unable to protect my family more than a natural disaster itself, I think. I'll try to seriously get that disaster kit together tomorrow so I don't have to be so scared every time something like this happens. I just hope it won't be too late!
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2012-10-17 11:56 pm
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Happy birthday to Tsubasa~

omg I have to go to bed now
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2012-07-19 01:54 pm
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Colorgenics again, because I'm curious!

Another roll with colorgenics!

Should I really stop trying so hard? Isn't it that I'm not trying hard enough? Well, I should find out in the next two weeks.

I'm greatly amused by the "mentally lazy" part. Yeah.. Hmm..
I'm sorry for reacting touchily. I was aware of it, too.

Just the results XD )



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2012-06-11 06:10 pm
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[DVD] Tsubasa Imai Dance&Rock 2009 + Tackey & Tsubasa Ho! Summer How to Dance Special

[DVD] Tsubasa Imai Dance&Rock 2009

I'm fulfilling a previously filed request, but I've also been hoping to have a reason to share this again and dang, it was like fate. This is the perfect chance for me to! 8D

So yeah, whoever else is interested in Tsubasa's 2009 Dance&Rock Tour, GET IT HERE (Mediafire)! The concert file was originally uploaded by Tatsu, but since the MU thing, I've mirrored it on Mediafire. I'm sorry it's so many files.

Join with HJSplit. 8D

**BY THE WAY, does anyone have the making of that came with? I don't have it anymore and I'd like to get it again. Thanks!**

[DVD] Tackey & Tsubasa Ho! Summer How to Dance Special (English Subbed)

I also have this Tackey & Tsubasa Ho! Summer How to Dance Special subbed by Mognet.
For those who can't torrent, here's a MEDIAFIRE MIRROR!
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2012-06-11 06:00 pm
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[Jdrama] Haru e Natsu

I reuploaded to fulfill a request. I remember I was looking so desperately for working links, too.. Unfortunately, I don't have all of them so.. If anyone can fill in the missing pieces, it'd be great if you could help us all out! It seems when I was getting parts 2 for both episodes 1 and 2, it didn't download correctly!

Folder link

Episode 1

Part 1
Part 2: MISSING! Help?

Episode 2
Part 1
Part 2: MISSING! Help?

Episode 3

Part 1
Part 2

Episode 4
Part 1
Part 2

Episode 5


I'm uploading what I have, but it seems I don't have Ep 5 at ALL, and both the part 2 I have for Episodes 1 and 2 doesn't seem to be complete. DDD= Can someone help me fill in this void?
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2012-05-31 10:15 pm
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Today wasn't so bad.. !!

I went to class as usual, skipping the FST class that I no longer need to show up for! I keep checking the grade book to make sure I still have that A! I went to transfer hour today, and because there was free pizza and a presentation, I decided to show up late for my tractor lab.. I got to ride the tractors so much today! I really enjoyed it! I was beginning to complain about how I don't get to ride tractors all that much in this class, but today made up for it.. even though the assignment for lab today wasn't all that exciting. I mostly enjoyed myself because I picked up flags and was allowed to ride for fun!

Today was really warm! I returned to my apartment and checked my email only to remember that there was some movie showing with free pizza at 7 pm. It was a little after 6 pm when I found that email, and I debated whether to go or not. I was kind of pizza'd out, but the organization that was hosting the movie, as well as the movie we were going to watch, sounded interesting. I thought I'd go, even if it meant having pizza again for dinner.

The organization, called University Allied for Essential Medicine, was showing part 3 of the PBS program called "RX For Survival". I learned from the group's crash course that the organization actually exists in many other UC campuses-- it's just brand new and started at Davis. Well, I was very intrigued, and the movie we watched really reached out to me. It was about the poorer parts of the world where medicine doesn't reach because of transportation issues and lack of availability. Doctors without Borders was also mentioned in it.

Well, it truly got me thinking. I think I know what I want to do. Well, I know what I want to do, but I wasn't too sure on my reasons why. I also wasn't sure on what I need to do. I understand now, and in order to make that dream a reality, I have to do whatever it takes. I've been really bummed out for the past week, and my sister can attest to that, but I think I'm ready to fight again. I'm ready to fly and aim for this goal. When there's a will, there's a way. I checked the mirror when I got home, and I saw a cute girl with bright eyes. I can really feel my vigor returning to me.

I never liked the idea of saying the reason why I'd want to become a physician is to help people. Sure, of course, that is the ultimate goal, but I feel for me, that there's a sort of plasticity in saying that. I've been told, or rather, I'm there when people tell others, that there needs to be a reason beyond that. Starting last year, I was never too sure what it was for me. Taking the writing in health class made me realize doctors need to be cultured and have a wide variety of tastes to be able to connect with a patient. That really opened my eyes and made me interested in the field but... but what else? I hear again about how in the personal statement for medical school, I need to state why I want to be a physician and why I must go to medical school. That worried me again, because if I think about the communication and relating aspect that drew me in, I have to ask myself, yeah, why? Because obviously, if I want to just talk and relate to people, there are plenty of other jobs that can do that!

But after watching that movie, I see now. I never thought too much about teaching because to me that makes it sound like I have to be qualified to do it. But if I think about it, I've done some teaching! I enjoy sharing what I know with other people to help them along. I like letting people know what I know. I was even considering taking up tutoring again more recently.. Looking at this aspect again, while brushing my teeth, I thought about how I like to educate, on the communicating level. I like to relate and share what I know. At the same time I enjoy forming relationships with people. To me, because of that one class, I feel that an important task of doctors is to make their patients feel comfortable. The patient must be able to trust the doctor. I know the feeling all too well when we don't want to admit that we haven't been doing as much exercise as we should when they ask!

If I also think about it, I think I really like sharing the love. I think what I want to do, alongside the teaching, the helping, the doctoring... is to give love with those actions. It's the act of God's grace, I believe, and ultimately it's important to love others and teach them how to love themselves and others... and one way to start, I think, is to take care of health!

I think I can say I leveled up in maturity today! I'm always surprised at how there is always room for me to grow as a person, because I feel I'm a very mature individual. Whenever I learn new things or realize something that I know just helped me see a new perspective or gain a new life lesson, I'm just blown away by how I've just made room to grow, and there is still yet more room for me to grow in upcoming years.

Despite saying all that, I really have to focus on my studies! I can't even begin thinking like this if I'm not doing well academically!