31 October 2009 @ 02:07 pm
Happy Halloween! But that has nothing to do with this. XD  
I'll make this as brief and pithy as possible, because I don't want to dwell too much into it and I know I make things get really long-winded.

I don't quite feel my family has been the same since the IRS incident. Everyone has become a little detached, and it's so hard for me to take, considering they're people who are the closest to me. I guess if I couple in the fact that I'm spending more time in school and having to do things like drive myself to places I have to be at, it is really hard to believe that things can't be what they were before. I know change is a part of growing up, but it's so hard. It's crazy how happy and old cheerful times can disappear or end, even though I know they can't stay like they are forever.

I'll cope, though. I'm the kind of person that likes to believe that if I want something like reliving those days, I have to make new memories! That in itself isn't that difficult, but it's starting that's hard. I like what Nagase Tomoya said in [livejournal.com profile] newshfan 's subbed 2001 sports day thing. Something along the lines of "It's up to me to get the results I want". It's about sports, but hey, still inspirational!

Life is funny, which makes it a little bit hard for me to decide what to do sometimes.

Also, reading about some f-list updates about Koichi's proposed 100 shows of Endless Shock, new album, solocon.. I know that sounds and is a lot of work, but I'd rather feel happy for him than be worried. XD Reading how some people feel about makes me kind of depressed, but I have no doubt he'll work hard. Rather than worrying that he'll forget to eat, I'd prefer to think he'll take better care of himself and eat well. Plus, he has Pan. That's his energy source right there. (X!

That said, I feel that way about a lot of you, too! I thought about what [livejournal.com profile] rurun said, and I won't specify what, but I would rather feel happy for any of you than worried. I just feel optimism is an empowering feeling, that's all. I would think some people wouldn't want anyone to worry about them..? Perhaps they'd rather have others believe them?

Alas, I do digress. It's Halloween today in the US, and I don't know where else, but whether ornot you celebrate this holiday, I hope everyone has a good one. n_n

 
 
Current Mood: confused
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Domoto Koichi - Ai no Jujika
 
 
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[identity profile] gally04.livejournal.com on October 31st, 2009 10:25 pm (UTC)
Nagase is the voice of reason indeed XDDD

I tend to worry for Koichi ^^;; *bows down*
But I have this 'mother' personality which will worry for everyone, no matter what XD
I trust Koichi to know his limits and what he can do or not ... it's just sometimes, it really feels so dangerous (-_-)
I'd like to believe he still has the body and stamina of a 20-year-old boy, but I can't help it ... I want him to enjoy himself, work hard, but still be careful about his health ^^
The last thing I would want to see/read is that he really achieved something incredible (great) but fell on the ground from exhaustion during his last performance (not great at all) ^^;;

But Pan will protect him (^.^)
And Tsuyoshi is always there too <3
No need to worry, I know :p

Anyway, I'm really happy for him ! Next year should be very interesting from his side <3
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[identity profile] hikabunny.livejournal.com on October 31st, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
Nagase surprisingly says good things! Like that trick to get the name of someone.. XD Doesn't quite exactly work like that here, but boy, it's a sneaky trick!

I think that's a good trait. XD It shows you really care, and that you'd probably be a good mother. I'm a bit envious, since how I feel about things probably marks me as naive, wistful, wishy-washy, whatever it is. So then I'm unsure how I should feel. Realistic, or optimistic?

How you feel is totally fine. I understand and feel the same to an extent, while at the same time, I kind of want things to be a bit more cheerful!

Yep! Now I wonder what Tsuyo has planned. (X

By the way, I thought you were going to sleep. XDD
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[identity profile] gally04.livejournal.com on October 31st, 2009 10:41 pm (UTC)
I wonder if it's a good trait sometimes ^^;
I can easily worry for everything and nothing, and sometimes, I feel like I only stifle my family/friends and I'm just being a pain XD
But at least, I have a feeling I can do something for them ^^;;
Go and tell Koichi "Okay boy, you wanna overexhaust yourself... erm work your ass off for all your projects, that's great and I love you even more when I see so much passion ... just be careful !" XDDD That's impossible ^^
So yeah, let's be optimistic and just enjoy his incredible performances <3

I'm sure people are overjoyed to know Koichi will achieve so many things next year ! (^.^)
That's when he starts becoming bony that people worry ^^;;

Can't wait to see Tsuyo's project XD
I... hope it will be more interesting than this year *runs away and hides "I liked it !! But... he made missed Endli so much !" XD*

I thought so too XD
But I had missed some lj updates :p
And then you answered here :p

Going to sleep now :P
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[identity profile] hikabunny.livejournal.com on October 31st, 2009 10:43 pm (UTC)
I wondered if I should answer, because I really want you to get some sleep. XDD

LMAO, even saying what you suggested there is a bit too much! XD

Oh man, it was this year where he stopped Endli, right? It feels like so long ago for some reason. @_@;;

BUT YOU SHOULD JUST GO. LJ UPDATES WON'T GO ANYWHERE. They'll be waiting for you when you wake up and come back. 8D Good night! (X
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[identity profile] gally04.livejournal.com on October 31st, 2009 11:01 pm (UTC)
*laughs* Your fault, not mine :P

Well, I know it's a bit too much, but he needs someone to kick his ass if he goes too far, na ? XD
I guess Pan and Tsuyoshi are there for that anyway lol

I wish we could hear more of Cheri 4 you performances ^^;
Anyway, I hope next year will be an 'Endli-year' *fufu*

... *hides and tiny voice* But I like commenting :P And I feel like if I answer someone, I should answer everyone ^^;;

Good night (for real XDD )
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[identity profile] primea.livejournal.com on November 1st, 2009 08:09 am (UTC)
so idk what irs is, but i'm impressed by your attitude<3 that nagase's line is good too, sounds simple but aren't simple solutions the best?

i won't believe kouichi will eat properly but that's a norm for him by now so i could care lessXD but it's great how you can stp yourself from worrying about others and believe in them. i can't do that and always end up first stressing over what might happen to my friends and then seeing they are alright, i feel bad that i can't push myself that far *sigh*

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[identity profile] hikabunny.livejournal.com on November 1st, 2009 03:59 pm (UTC)
XD Thank youuuu. There's no need to be impressed, since it's all a stage we ahve to go through-- realizing you have to grow up and be your own adult to take care of things and such. But even if I say that, I'm happy you say so. XD

I'm left out on the details because parents don't want to tell you much when they're depressed, but the IRS is the government's tax people..? I'm not sure, but they wanted to look at our stuff to make sure we really own the things we say we do, since we kind of uh, own more than we make money for.

I wonder if that's good, though! XD I see everyone sharing that same kind of worrying, and I wonder if I should do the same. I don't think it's bad at all. Even now I still kind of worry a lot and stuff, but then when things turn out okay in the end, I kind of get scolded by everyone that I shouldn't have worried too much. So I guess now I'm just trying to move in the stage of "Everything will be okay because I will make it okay." Easier said than done, though!
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[identity profile] rurun.livejournal.com on November 13th, 2009 09:04 am (UTC)
I'm late. T_T But I think worry is a good thing tho, showing you concern about people around you. :) I appreciate the worry thing too, and really appreciate it if people worry about me since it has come to my senses that people sometimes need support and concern although other people might see them as strong and tough person. But sometimes when you show you worry, they will say something like "don't worry too much, it's ok", I guess it's because they want to make you calm? because they're worried they've made you worried too? ^^; so both of them will be calm down and be alright. XD XD
So don't worry about the worry thing. Most people really appreciate it if people concerns/worry about them. :)

and I'm sorry to hear about your family situation too... I guess we need to do our best to cope with things neh. :) and yeah, I too want to make some new memories when I have the time XD XD

About Kouichi, I feel the same ways like you too when reading others' comments, but I just hope he'll happy with his career and enjoy it. And didn't he say he eats to live? And to work too, he must eat too. So I think he takes care of his meals. :) :)
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